My feelings are being displayed to me in reverse, as if I’m looking in a mirror. The reflections of what I should be feeling are inverted, which is making it hard for me to have the feeling of stability. I have always been planted into my own train of though, but I am not sure of what I believe.

Whatever I do, I have to stay strong in what I believe or I will fall and fumble over every stumbling block put in my way. If this stumbling block is my own thoughts, emotions, my family, or my friends; I’ll have to pass over it. Currently, this feeling I have is growing deeper, and the longer it takes for me to overcome this, the longer and harder it will be to pass over the great chasm in my life that has formed.

L

(It is Mothers birthday today, I was meant to go to work with her but she has a shitty boss and he said no. Relatively boring)

Written on 06 October 2005 at 7:03 pm